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Childhood Amnesia

by Arsenic Annie

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1.
Daisy Chains 02:44
Black coats, blue lips, we’re going out for the night To creepy crawl the minds of those who never question We watch them live and laugh in brightly coloured lives Blonde hair, red smiles, lips that stay frozen Lalalala so lovely So fucking delicate, so picturesque Lalalala so lovely Better find a daisy chain to hang yourself with This haunted house belongs to the dusk so silent Our smiles tainted with violence seem strange and out of place Early spring flowers were growing on the banks of the river You stopped to take a picture Caught us laughing, caught us leaving Blue hearted singers burned that bridge across the river And on this side the grass turns grey and the daisies die
2.
He gave her a penny for a kiss Just a taste of her innocence He didn’t think twice, why would he think twice? She gave him a fist full of marigolds A sign of her love, or so she’s been told She doesn’t know why, how could she know why? I’m not made from plastic I’m flesh and blood and bleed, bleed, bleed Whether I whisper or scream You never seem to listen when I plead I was taught to be seen but never heard Stared at until my skin itched Bribed for my love until there was nothing left Eyes closed, lips stitched
3.
Fangirl 03:53
All alone in my bedroom, stare at the ceiling Way back when, when the sky was falling And all your songs would make me dizzy I liked the way your eyes felt on me Took the long way home Sore heart and feet Aching to be alone With that same song on repeat Heart is racing, hands are shaking, can’t describe how you feel I swear it’s completely irresistible, that suicidal sex appeal And all your teenage heroes disappointed you in the end They sell out or they fuck up or they don’t live past 27 You are my whole world Made me laugh until my stomach ached Lost like a little girl Do you know how many hearts you break?
4.
Dear Martine 03:29
Dear Martine, I hope the weather’s treating you well Down there in hell Are you looking up and laughing at me? I’ve been hearing stories about the place they took you Does the sun never set? And is it true That the ice cream tastes like rotted flesh? Cos I’m headed that way soon With pockets filled with dust and gloom Pretty teeth and ugly soul Pity me and take me home And I started singing “don’t stop me now” (You said I was a poser who probably didn’t even like Queen) And I just kept singing “don’t stop me now” (You were acting so self righteous, you were being so fucking mean) Dear Martine Dear Martine, I’ve been to blue Carolina I was looking for your laughter I found it deeply buried in a daydream They locked me in a windowless bathroom I could hear they’d gotten their hands on you The blackout saved my soul x2 But it didn’t save you What was I supposed to do? Far too little, far too late My stupidity sealed your fate
5.
Flailing 03:48
Daydreaming, saw the seasons change Stop staring, stop staring into space Do you, do you, do you see what I see? Silly, sad thoughts catching up with me Isolated stranded on my feet Flailing on the edge of sleep Wait for another daydream to carry me away Flirt with motivation, lie down with apathy Write a love song to blue January Blink and it’s suddenly grey February And I felt the rain before it fell cold and thick Now there’s no way to tell am I sad or am I sick? Given up, stuck in a daydream This soaring high note rises to a scream Found my way and then I lost my mind Misheard you say “come Thursday I’ll be fine”
6.
Sun falling down in my eyes Took the long way home at moonrise The sun never sets and is it true? You’re out for the night, lips painted blue Now you’re stuck in the basement doing a seance x3 For all the pretty horses x4
7.
Sports a pale blue apron and a gruesome grin She’ll laugh half hearted at all your bad jokes Watched her children kill their siblings Wash their bloody hands in all her waters Takes a quaking breath, stretched and aching flesh Burnt and blistered from all their stubby cigarettes Unable to satisfy, unable to close her eyes She’s forced to watch, watch it all You can cry, cry, cry with all your tears But they won’t hear, they won’t hear you Sports a red lace bra and her guts are filled with tar Exploited, overused, overwhelmed and disappointed Watched her children tear out her organs Pollute her priceless, precious blood Unable to forget, unable to close her legs She’s forced to endure, endure it all You can cry, cry, cry with all your tears But they don’t don’t care, they never cared for you You can cry, cry, cry with all your tears But they don’t change, won’t change a thing for you You can cry, cry, cry with all your tears But they never lifted a finger till it was too late Too late
8.
Asleep with your eyes wide open, Lips silently moving Telling me things I don't want to know So count count all your sheep, I'll sing until you sleep And there they go, there go the geese There they go A signal to move along, But how I want to know your name And every one of your secrets and sins God I want to know your name Your name She came with the cold weather, I was trying, I was trying to get better Trying to forget her Because you can't always get what you want I used to always get what I wanted And what I want is this You sit there and smoke your cigarettes Tell me your name Tell me you love me Tell me your name I bet it’s so pretty Tell me your name Your name
9.
Wake up in a house, standing just beneath the skylight Walking circles in the dust, repeating “Something’s wrong and something’s right” They all think that you’re a freak, and what’s done is done I think you’re kind of enthralling, but maybe I’m the only one Panic over, we’ve reached our conclusion, now I know I’m someone else You’re all happy, smiling, laughing, and I know you can’t help yourself The backyard is overgrown with ghosts This is just one of those situations, I’m gonna have to make the most of What do I do? Now we’re all screwed And if you’re dead, then I’m so dead too What’s over is never over, let’s untangle the tapes for a better view What do I do? Now we’re all screwed This could get messy, as far as I know Violence is likely, I’m pretty sure we gotta go As soon as we step on the street, chaos ensues We’re trying to complete an impossible task, but no one knows what else to do A little girl slowly approaches, my friends don’t have much to discuss They say, “B, try the tape of The Little Mermaid! I’m pretty sure she’s here to help us” But her mother stops before we can, and she doesn’t like what she sees She has much to say about our lack of experience, so B just laughs and backs down, and agrees The backyard is like a loaded gun J thinks he can prove them wrong, I’m guessing he’s not the only one The backyard is a forest that’s clouded with doubt S thinks he can find an answer, but he doesn’t know what this is about The backyard is waiting with its hook, line and bait R thinks that the worst is over But even he can’t escape his fate
10.
Walk Away 03:25
There goes the weather changing again My mood changed to a deep, dark blue It's not as if you’d miss me at all, But do you miss the way you felt when I met you? You had this burning hate inside your soul Which you took and made your own You wore it everyday with a smile on your face, think it made you feel less alone (And even on the rainiest of days, I always wanted to say) Honey, honey won't you run away with me? We could make a home in the deep blue sea You've got no money, I've got no dreams You know this world isn’t ever what it seems (You hate everyone) You wore the title of best friend like a medal around your neck, You were so, so proud But I never really got the way you talked, how you'd throw words and names about You were everything to me and I was just a way of passing the longest summer Sundays (And even though you're walking away, I still sort of want to say) I'll be there to hold your l hand I'll say I'm sorry in advance For when your heart goes and breaks I'll put it back together with cello tape I won't be there to hold your hand Say I'm sorry in advance For when your heart goes and breaks I think it's time to walk away (I hate everyone)
11.
This world isn't big enough for all your secrets and there's nothing I can do to hold you down But I'll hang onto your arm all the same, let you lie to them, take the blame there is nothing I can do or say to make your change yourself or change your ways Feel the tides change, feel me drift away with them, feel you in my veins, you are my heroine The radio plays songs that make you think of me, I'm just your distant, desert fantasy Fact or fiction, truth or dare, I'm losing my mind but you know I don't really care When you’re out there on the run I run, run, run down to the ocean What is the point of reality? When there’s no you and me Tell me about the sun falling down in my eyes If you're going down, go down slowly Just like a plane we’re spinning out of control If I'm going down then you're coming with me
12.
There goes my rose tinted heart, Missing people who can't remember my name Oh how quickly home sweet home becomes a cage I miss you x4 Woke up and realised, I'm not the person I’m meant to be You're all busy moving on and I'm still wondering if you ever think of me I miss you x4 Maybe it was just my childhood amnesia distorting things Swallowed my pride, bitter like nostalgia It rose like bile I think I'm dying x3 Curiosity was killing me Everything that I didn't know I'm still sleeping with a hatchet I should have buried forever and ago

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We consider this a sort of continuation of Up the Hill (our first album). Like it, these are all songs that were written at least 3 years ago. We were initially going to release them as one giant album in two parts, but these songs had such a different feel we decided to give them the time they deserved and make something a bit different. We also had better recording equipment, so that helped.

If Up the Hill was about childhood, then this album is about our teen years. We hope you enjoy the journey

You know you love me
XOXO
Ash and Mads (she decided she didn’t like Greta anymore)

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released May 27, 2022

Recorded and mixed completely at home. Cover art by Mads Ashton.

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